Hi, it’s been a while since the last time I wrote a post. Been busy for the past months and have little time to share new things, even to think about what to write.
But for the past several days work has been cooled off. Hours are not as crazy as they used to and all of the sudden I found the urge to write again.
Actually it’s been a while that I have the urge to write again, but it was either I was too tired, or the words just got stuck somewhere in my mind. Well, you may say that I experienced a “writer’s depression era” for the past few months, being dull on ideas and all.
Now that I have gained my passion and ideas to put down on words, let us just cut to the chase.
As you have read in the title, what I am about to write now is about love. Well, not about how pure and cute love is but about how hard it is to implement than just saying. And I am not only talking about men-women love, but also love in general. The human to human kinds of love. True, I am going to focus on men-women love but I have also experienced some other kinds of love lately, so I am going to have a word or two on those things.
Men-Women Love

This is the common topic when we talk about love. As you may have noticed, my last post about romantic facts is very lovey-dovey. Well, maybe it is because I have just recently started dating again. My boyfriend is happen to be someone whom I cherish, someone whom I look out for, and someone whom I have in mind in most of the time during my 15-hours-a-day life, everyday. We are very intense. The only time that he is off my mind is probably when I am asleep.
Well, I am not that desperate or helplessly madly deeply in love but I guess you could say that when I am dating someone, I am the type of girl who really “focusing on his well-being and pleasing him.”
It’s a good nature to be possessed actually, but it does not come without excesses.
Loving someone is not as easy as saying it. Being loved by someone is not as easy as saying it. And to nurture the love and maintain the sparks is not as easy as saying it. Forget what they write in magazines, forget what people told you that you should please your man, do as he said, or cook him dinner every night so that he won’t run.
It’s not that simple, really.
Well, as much as I said I care about my bf’s well-being and trying to please him, I have never cooked for him, nor do everything based on what he said. I work 15 hours a day and spent most of my time in the office. Yes, I respect him. But I am trying to keep my head on at the same time. I have personality, you know. I have character. It is what define me. But trust me, putting it on paper, or a post in casu, is way easier than implementing it.
Let’s face it. Both of us work in a tight deadline. I have always been the talkative one but also the one who spends 15 hours a day at work. He is the “less talk, silence is better” one and dislikes overworking. So it makes us in complementary situation on some occasions, but in some other time also puts us on distance of differences.
Well, like any other couple, we quarrel, we argue, we kiss and we make up. But still, everyday feels like a hard work as well as amusement at the same time.
He made me laugh, he made me cry, he made me think, but he also made me enjoy. I guess that is love. By definition, it is a saint-ly thing that people worship. But by reality, it is something that most people would fight about — for good reasons and better results, I hope.
Seeing and experiencing those things have made me realize that there’s no such thing a s fairytale love, everything in life needs hard work. Love and maintaining your relationships is no exception to that.
Love For Others

Other form of love I have experienced lately is towards those who are less fortunate than me. I have posted several posts concentrating on my concern for those who are less fortunate than me. Today’s post will talk about them too.
I have been writing about this several times and have been wishing to be able to have a real-life experience to help them. Lucky for me, that opportunity came a month ago. A friend said that his group is doing a weekly tutoring for homeless kids in Senayan. I immediately said to him at that time: “I’m joining you!”, and voila! I was accepted with open hands and God has led me to the opportunity to embrace those kids and teach them to read, plus some English.
But then again, my love for those kids come to test. It was not like the way I had imagined. They are pretty dirty and talks with impolite tone sometimes. Some of them are also bragging and demanding. But it was not all about that. A kid was also being very reluctant to study as he turned down every method and attempt we made to lure him into joining the other kids to study. I was appointed to be his tutor, along with another teacher (a male, also about my age). But this kid, Dio, turned us down and being very stubborn, even giving us the silent treatment.
For me, that was a test of love. I love those children. I care for them. But sometimes someone just crossed the limit.
But I could not be mad at Dio, or the other kids. I have many thoughts and suspect that Dio’s behavior was also a result of influences from his closest family or neighbor. Perhaps his parents are less supportive, if not ignorant or challenging, of the idea of him studying and going to school. There could be hundreds of other factors. He could be very defensive due to an abusive daily treatment or discouraging treatment he receives everyday. It’s not a shock, seeing the fact that he grew up in streets.
Poor Dio. It appears to me that until now he refused the idea of studying, while the other kids embrace us and show spirits and eagerness each time we arrive to teach. I do hope that we will be able to melt Dio’s ice someday.
Someday.
So, as I am writing this, I am fully aware that love is not as easy as saying I love you. It’s not a lip service thing. It takes courage, passion, patience, and a good heart to grow good love. I hope, I will never lose a heart to fight for love. I hope people will never give up on love (especially their love for me) as I will never give up on love.
I wish I can be surrounded with love by my lover, my family, coworkers, friends and even acquaintances. I wish we will never give up on love.
And of course, I wish this world be filled with love.
xo – S.